getting soft

I want the wind to blow in the warm bright days of summer...Hello impatiently waiting !It was not my intention to run into my ex-girlfriend at the casino last weekend. Well she ran into me. I was glad to see tears running down her face when I turned around to see who had called me by name. Hope...my perfect alibi at one time. Well with the evil twist. She and I use to see each other over the years before I figured out I like dick. And instead of just being my best friend and enjoying the view.. she turned on me. She went to my boyfriend and slept with him after she told him I had cheated on him. Which I guess I did, with her. Does it count really if he is in jail for a year ? Or if she is just using you..so she would be able to borrow some of your best clothes? I don't know and I don't care. Like I told her you both can have my sloppy seconds. Anyway I did something I swore I would never do..I forgave her. Not really to her face or anything but inside of me. I do not have time for a bitter war. I think about him less and less. I guess I am getting soft. Or maybe I am just getting closer to the front of the line and I don't want to lose my place by going back to where I have been. Cause if the truth be told I think of Cap as a best friend and I know that I have not met the love of my life yet. So I choose to stay in line and hope for a taste of whatever it is we are all waiting for..while we all stand still. Anyway also today went to the beauty place and had my eyebrows done and a manicure. Cassidy had a manicure as well. She only got on my nerves 37 times today, trying to tickle me. I hate being tickled. And we just got back from wal-mart and are watching avatar again. Mom paid $59 for some conditioner for my hair, excuse me but that is crazy isn't it?