what matters most..

I looked and read the trash I wrote when I found the time to sit still long enough to blog. It is the dark matter that bothers me the most, cause that is not what I am about, is it? I know and understand that life is about the good and the bad. It is about the balance between night and day. Of finding something to hold onto before we go away. It is about screaming in rage and trembling with fright. It is about the games we play and the secrets we keep. It is about forgiving ourself for not giving up on the things that we should and fingering doubt as we lie awake in bed. It is for not believing in love and squeezing it tight. For not letting it grow into a beautiful thing, cause we don't want to lose it..whatever the cost. For breathing in the sweet taste of life and not getting lost in the dream.
Life is about chocolate cake and holding hands, fruity pebbles with plenty of milk. And smiling at men with that sensual grin. For waiting in line and not eating all your food. For popping your zits before they burst and walking in the rain. Crying at movies and wiping your nose on the sleeve of your shirt. Leaving the lights on when you fool around and yelling at cars as you race down the road. Cause the idiots need to know who has the right of way..which is you of course. It is for not giving a shit about what people think. It is about .."last call for alcohol" and throwing up in the drain. It is all about looking up at the stars and howling insane by the light of the silvery moon. It is about my sailor mouth and the way that I walk and my love for tight fitting jeans It is about falling down and waiting around for someone to hold out a hand to help you up. It is about chasing your dog when he gets loose and getting your children off the school. It is about dirty clothes and dishes that you hide out of sight. It is impossible to say what else I love ....oh yeah good health and not wearing a bra and being insane...