God it was sooo good to hear your voice on the other end of the phone. Ahhh misadventure after misadventure we have shared over the years. Are we connected by the Davis charm or the Davis curse..how much I have come to absolutely rely on you to restore my sanity, cause only you knew how crazy a Davis could make one. Only you, only you Hope know of my love and heartbreak. How my love for him destroyed any taste of a normal life or future as a functioning adult. I remember calling you everytime I was spent. Everytime I was used up and you would know-you never had to ask. You knew of my suffering and deepest dark depression, cause you had shared it your self in this unfolding Davis drama. God did the years and usage speed away from us and all we had to offer? I could barely keep my head above the water that last week. I forgot how to breath and was starting to turn red..dark red. I was so lost and confused. I have cried so many tears since I met you and since I last talked to you. I tried to hold out til you were out. But I could not have done it any longer without drowning in my shallow spoon of despair. It was only your kind words that saved me for a couple more days. The last time i let you give me air to breathe, one last dying breath to hold onto..You said Kris did you forget how beautiful you are ? when you heard my sad voice on the other line..
Yes hope my vice got in the way, my future daughter in law. If I could have only believed the words you fed to me, would it have been enough.
I don't know Cap was my Dr. Kervorkian
and all I wanted was the cure
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