heaven

i toss and then i turn and then i toss once more before i flip completely over and try to fit my body to the emptiness that is my one and only. i sigh most of the time without even realizing it and i question everything that involves me. . like i am not real. who will love me and hold me in the night ? there is no one who wants me more than i want them. i am soo far from this place i cannot even recall it's name. I am giving up on that place that is suppose to exist outside the streets of this world.