eternal breath for immortalality

Okay two nights okay as I was laying on my bed trying to reflect on something besides myself I felt my nanny beside me and even though i wasn't praying at the time ..my heart became full of eternal longing. The question remains the same or is it the answer remains the same? I thought to myself if i could ask god one question what would it be ? I felt or rather heard my nanny's voice whisper in my ear.."you only get to heaven on the arms of those you help" OR " when you pray you must never ask for anything for yourself". I rolled over and finished my book Queen of the Orcs and didn't realize i had fallen asleep until i sat up and asked the pewter dragon hovering from a string of fishing line over my head. This is what i finally came up with...what brings joy to the heart of my heavenly father?
Eary this morning i became aware of the day before my eyes opened and i felt my answer form without any words or details..is that considered daydreaming ? Anyway this is i felt or saw with invisible eyes..
THAT IMMORTALITY OF OUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS SO SIMPLE IN IT'S COMPLICITY THAT IT FALLS INTO PLACE..MAYBE.
WHEN WE ARE BORN INTO THIS DIMENSION WHAT IS THE ONE THING THAT IS MOST IMPORTANT...TO INHALE
WHEN WE ARE AT THE END OF OUR LIFE REGARDLESS OF THE LENGTH OF IT ..WE EXHALE
INHALE AND EXHALE
LIFE AND DEATH
WE ARE ETERNAL
TO THE LAST BREATH
AND AS LONG AS WE LIVE AND DIE
MAYBE THAT DIVINE SPARK
THAT IS HIS
REASON WHY

and for that reason we are his breath
that gives him life to carry on and eternal joy to feel our mother earth beneath his feet. For the mother

lost in time..

Am going to have my daughter dearest dose for the weekend. I have not seen cassidy for a couple weekends now and miss her terribly. I mean who can drive me crazy with that smirk on her face and her hands on her hips in that classic cheerleader stance ? I cannot stand cheerleaders and well let's just say drummers and dancers is gonna eat up her time. This picture i found in a book i had started reading four of five years ago..the historian and i just stared at it lost in that time.. breastfeeding and working for the postal service and my booookie booo so vunerable and needful of all the services a mommy has to offer.Gotta get back over and finish multiple listings on ebay...evergreen899

shadow

These past couple of months i think i have been having strange dreams...not nightmares at least i don't think. I have never remembered my dreams . Of course daydreams and wet dreams are more of the wishful thinking kind. The wind was blowing soo hard last night as if to awaken me so i could become aware of what and where i was. But i drifted back under. I love sleep it embraces me tight and everything fades back into the book of life that is me and the great father puts me back up on the shelf for as long as he can. Knowing nothing for certain except my story is far from over. Life or reality is it real or make-believe? You know what the voice inside my chest says ? Are we the ghostshadow or the shell that hides the answer. Is it the question that never changes or the answer? I don't know anybody that is alive more than i know myself and i don't know who i really am at all and that scares me. Life is the cancer not death . All our senses and free will and we follow our heart right ? Yep we follow our heart straight to the grave. I feel the invisibility of my mother's love as the wind moves through my hair. I hear my mother's voice in the morning in the birds joyous song. I feel my fathers eyes upon me and i falter because i am soo weak and not strong. How can i feel my mother's presence strengthen me and fear his love at the same time? Because i am not where i am suppose to be or so i thought but now i know i am right on time. I believe in the spirit and i believe in the soul. I just don't know. There are so many voices saying this is what is right..and this is what it wrong. This religion of churches push me down and make me question what i know. Like i am stupid to even think about what they say or want. I know better but sometimes i feel the need to belong. But I have to pay my tithing and i am behind for all my life so now i am unclean and can't step anywhere near a temple when my parents are sealed for time and eternity. I thought God was about goodness and help and spiritual growth for all. I feel that bitter bile at the back of my throat and want to jump up and yell at them all. For every dollar i would pay to the church would you pay for that with your precious time? Because i would .Time is what we need to give not money when you don't have any to give. And I have always got time to help a stranger or even the ones i know. But what am i talking about only those who are good ..seem to know. We fear change as much as we want change. it is a circle it reminds me of a cat chasing her tail or a round- a bout right in the middle of town....that makes you want to start burning rubber- as you spin around.

ebay

any of the auctions that are on my blog are not for sale here..they are on ebay ...they are just bits and pieces things i do all day

tranquility..

have 4 or 5 things going out today and have not even started the get ready to ship mode...yawn in progress-damn that feels good !! So here is the best deal i have listed since last night, especially with christmas around the corner. If you have got daughters this would be perfect So here I am stepping up to the plate and in my best seller's voice.....


Hello this is a brand new, still in the box Marie Osmond doll.."Tranquility". Only thing is i take it out of the box to photograph it and there is a snag (like a panyhose run) on the tip of one of her butterfly wings. The snag or run is close to a half inch long. But the good thing is her wings are not attatched to the doll and just because they come with the doll doesn't mean they have to be on her..i wouldn't have thought to put them on her cause it is too much of a hassle trying to get the cords in the right spot. So i have chosen to cut the price way way down. This doll is something that will make you supermom on christmas day. She is lifelike and simply gorgeous..she has a porcelain head,arms and legs. The box she came is 15 inches by 9 1/2 inches. Her certificate of authenticity reads as follows...MARIE OSMOND IS DELIGHTED TO PRESENT A NEW SERIES OF DOLLS ENTITLED BECOMING BUTTERFLIES, WHICH EMBODIES AND REFLECTS CHARACTERISTICS NECESSARY ALONG ONE'S PATH OF ACHIEVING AND RECOGNIZING THE BEAUTY WITHIN. TRANQUILITY IS THE DEBUT DOLL WITHIN THE COLLECTION AND REPRESENTS A STATE OF BEING PEACEFUL AND CALM WITHOUT STRESS AND ANXIETY, WHICH WHEN ACHIEVED REFRESHES, UPLIFTS AND TRANSFORMS. ENJOY TRANQUILITY TODAY AND EVERYDAY.
TRANQUILITY IS TRULY A COLLECTIBLE DOLL SCULPTED BY KAREN SCOTT. SHE HAS BEEN HANDCRAFTED WITH THE SPECIAL ATTENTION TO DETAIL THAT IS THE HALLMARK OF ALL MARIE OSMOND DOLLS.
TRANQUILITY IS HALLMARKED ON THE BACK OF HER NECK WITH MARIE'S SIGNATURE AND IS HAND NUMBERED.

LIMITED EDITION # 0605/3000
CERTIFIED BY MARIE OSMOND (signature)



Pls note the reason for the drastic cut in price is for a flaw on an accessory and not the doll itself. The doll is brand new and still in the box i ordered it from qvc. All the accessories are included with the certificate of authencity. Also please remember shipping is included in the listed price...what you see is for everything straight to your door. Thanks for looking and have a good night


starting bid is $48.00
buy it now is $58.00
AND SHIPPING IS NO EXTRA CHARGE

by the foot...

okay have not been invaded by the coldness of the day..just listing away on ebay... am clearing my throat as i approach the way ...i say i say

Hello this is a pair of Birkenstock Betula sandals, size 8 ladies. The inside of this sandal reads as follows 39 5,5 250 L8 M6 BETULA ORIGINAL BIRKENSTOCK FUSSBETT BRAND SCHLE LEDER ...The tread shows little or no wear but there is a little fading on the inside right heel. These sandals are very clean and will go with anything. thanks for looking and check out my other listings as i offer free shipping..

p.s. starting bid is $28.00

my unlucky place...

okay this is a pic of my old single self surrounded by nothing that could save me or my stash of spending cash right before i went down down down to the floor at the cda casino. looking back i am soo not smiling 2 hours later that night heheh