to Hope. .

where are you Hope? i feel your pain at night sometimes. do you know how much havoc we have caused each other over the years with all our little escapades? our little misadventures? i have never loved someone soo much and disliked them at the same time. we are like two magnets. how destruction always seemed to find it's way into anything we shared together huh ? were we too much alike ? i want you to know that i turned from the pain and suffering of life into the forgiving arms of our saviour. the one you use to tell me about. i remember the time you came back into my life and you had been saved and were consumed with the  relegious fervor and i was silently amazed at the transformation of how proud you were of your faith! I wanted to know more but the truth is i didn't want you to realize that you had something i wanted hehe. the competition between us has always been fierce. we wasted soo much time on the chaos. i pray for you everyday sister. everyday i ask god to put a hedge of protection around your mind and to bring people into your life that are of him. i remember the heat burning in your heart for God. It lit up the night. it burned away the darkness. it touched me . . .