better is the end of a thing . .

tonight at bible study the main theme or lesson was centered around - Better is the end of a thing than the beginning. i always take notes at bible study and i had grabbed
an old journal and i had this wrote on the back side of one of my pages of notes dated April 18, 2012

for me
the past is better left on it's own
it won't fade away gracefully into old age
it won't die
my past is stagnant
a cess pool of diseased parasites
a breeding ground of bloodsucking misquitos
that infect the flesh
with "itch" or whatever virus
the NILE has sent downstream

to feed on innocent blood