ravings...

The layered look is impossible to get away from especially here in idaho where the winters are soo cold and blustery. What you see is not what you get..because all the faces that surround us of course have their magic mardi gras deception- tivity mask on. I have often wondered if maybe i should go for the one with the band that goes around the back of the head instead of the one you hold up over your face ..that way when i am drinking- my hands would be free to hold onto my cigarette. I do so like blowing smokes rings ...sigh . Here we go again on what i know in my crone stage. Mind you these are just little gasps of something that i know will bore the general public and i don't want to appear to introspective cause that is soo boring. Hell hold on- i better go wet my lips with that red steamy shiny lipgloss that just screams sexy before i start ranting about anything wrong. Why bitch darling when you can just blog it down somewhere where nobody reads it anyway and you can just hit the backspace button everytime you make a mistake instead of using an eraser..i mean hello? People especially females (mind as well start with the boobie people first) have more than one look or layer. You can ask your best friend say uh lissa .." .hey can you help me out with this i wouldn't ask but i really need you...um hand me the hammer that i just dropped" cause you are balanced on a chair in your sunday best and you would do the same for her without her having to ask. And this chic that knows all your juicy secrets and is attempting to put together a hot outfit for herself ..from your closet mind you is like sure..But in her head what she is thinking is FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK rolling the eyes stomp on over stomp on over ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh "HERE YOU GO" and sometimes if you choose to notice and not take it personally which i always try not to do because it will not do anything to alleviate the behavior. I always change too bitch faster than a werewolf in the light of a full moon why? Let me just state that ones children can be part of the cause. So i have started .well about one year ago trying to not think negative thoughts to myself about stupid mundane self-centered lazy ego tistical why waste your energy mean things on the inside of me ...that is a waste of the quiet peace i seek. You know the quiet peace that i use to find in the morning as i drove to work or school or whereever when the day was just starting ? That god allows us to have when there is nothing but oppourtunity to grab if you just stop complaining about the things you don 't have inside your head. i mean what i think i am asking is ..can the silence ever be heard? Or is the silence screaming just as loud as the noise. Cause i bet the noise of the living drives the silence completely mad...like homicidal mad