hammer time...

with all the living i've done all my life why can't i just a little bite of happiness now that i'm on my own ? is this the price i pay for the love i gave away ? that i just had to have ? that i am still lost inside of somewhere in the dark ? searching for a piece of me that i gave you ..while we were making love ?  when you held me captive with your eyes and your soft voice spoke my name. that is when i belonged to you.  when I heard you call my name. now you are with another and i lay in the dark. . i  am crippled and alone.  locked up in my own crazy place wondering which way to go.  always listening in the dark for your familiar knock on the door that i nailed shut.